I remember when God explicitly told me that I was going to be a writer. Even more specifically, that I was going to write a book. I was riding in my little Honda Civic on the way to my first class of the day at college. I remember just starting to cry. I cried because one, I had never felt like I had known anything about my “purpose” until that point and God had just met me right in my car and gave me a glimpse, but also because that was probably the one thing I wanted to avoid doing. Writing an entire book just seems so overwhelming when you think about it, and at that point, I was struggling writing 20 page papers for college! But nevertheless I knew this is what God wanted me to do.
I just want to pause here and talk about God telling me He designed me to be a writer. I want to talk about this because I know for years it always seemed like such a mystery to me when people would tell me God told them something. Like did you hear His voice or…? Now, I do believe that God can audibly speak to you. But I also know there are many ways He speaks to His children. If there’s anything I’ve learned it’s to not over complicate it. In this situation I had been dwelling on what I should possibly do with my life, as most college students do, and when I happened upon the thought of writing, it’s just as if every part of me was filled with the peace of God as if He was saying, “yes! That’s it! Write! Write, write, write!” Even today this is how God often speaks to me.
Now, as I was saying the thought of writing a book just seemed so daunting but I wanted to be obedient so of course I *had* to go to TJ Maxx and purchase a journal that I could start mapping out this book with. With excitement I did the super easy part of writing out my chapter titles and dividing the journal up into chapters so I could start figuring out what to write in each chapter. But that’s as far as I went.
I had told the group of young girls I led at church that I was going to write this book and every Wednesday they would ask about the progress I had made and I could never say anything different from the previous Wednesday. I felt so much shame that I had finally figured out my “calling” and I was already failing. I had it in my mind that this was the really big thing that I was put on this earth to do and I made it much more overwhelming than it needed to be. I set myself up for failure from the beginning by thinking it was either immediately writing a book or I wasn’t fulfilling my purpose on this earth.
But here is what I have learned. Your “purpose” or your “calling” is not this one big thing that will happen further down the road. You are called to every single day that you wake up. There is purpose in the way you present yourself to others when you go to school or work every day. There is meaning in the way you speak to your mom or dad. You are called to be a respectful and loving spouse. There is meaning when you send a sweet text to check up on a friend that’s struggling. Me leading that small group of young girls on Wednesdays? That’s part of my calling! There is opportunity for you to fulfill your calling every single day. You just have to have your eyes and ears open to see it!
The Bible says in Matthew 6:34 to not worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Don’t be so focused on who you are supposed to be in the future that you rob yourself of who you are supposed to be today. Think about the hundreds of choices you make every day. What you’re going to have for breakfast, whether you should get that bit of work done or put if off, if you should scroll through TikTok or pick up your Bible, if you should share about Jesus to a lost friend or skip the discomfort, if you should call a grandparent and talk for a bit or just wait until another day. There is meaning in every little choice we make and each one will take you in one direction or another. That is why I believe that your calling is in the every day. Your combined choices will compound as time goes on and will ultimately determine where you end up.
So I plea to you that each morning as you wake up that you will recognize that that day is a gift and there is ample opportunity to be who you are called to be. Sure, you can make you to do lists and strategize for the future. I can buy all of the journals from TJ Maxx that I want and plan out hundreds of books. But do not miss all that God has for you today! Be intentional. Be productive. Be present. Take all of the characteristics and passions that God placed inside of you and find a way to use them today!
All of those great plans and purposes God has for you? They start today. Don’t miss them.
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